Attractive. Appealing. Awake.
These are words I have not applied to myself in a long time.
Trying to live up to work, marriage, and motherhood expectations created by society, upbringing, or my imagination left me exhausted. Confused as to what I am supposed to be doing, wondering if whatever I am doing I could do better, etc. I would read in my Northwestern alumni magazine that someone a few years older (or younger) had died. So what I am doing right now matters either completely or not at all.
I have an education, a wonderful spouse, and healthy kids in safe schools. But in truth, my education is a bit outdated, my kids are growing up, and my spouse can’t keep my hair from thinning and greying. In the end, I don’t have any real life-threatening problems, so I also felt guilt.
I felt like ass.
A few months ago I ran into Marla Cartin, whom I had first met in the school hallway. We just started talking about projects and ideas. She had started a company Blue Velvet Curtain doing personal styling and designer sample sales. She brings new clothes, shoes, bags, scarves from high-end designer fashion houses to clients at a deep discount. We started to put together parties featuring her fashions and my jewelry. One thing lead to another and In a couple weeks, we are opening a shop in Miami.
A few of weeks ago, I again tried something new. Jessica Simonetti, a mom I have known for years, opened a Boston Body Pilates in Coolidge Corner, Brookline. She said it was her passion project. I started going to her morning class. Now, I plan my schedule around it. She has a sweet voice, an encouraging tone, and has really created a garden level vortex of positive energy in her studio. She said she wants us to take that energy and spread it out in the world.
For the first time, I am enjoying my creativity and exercise.
Getting styled by Marla and doing pilates with Jessica have made me feel beautiful and confident. I feel attractive, life is appealing and most importantly I feel awake. I love working with these inspired and motivated women.
Each of us is excited, passionate, and curious as to where our new projects will lead us.